So I am sitting here, and watching, listening and reading everyone being so excited for New Years. Though, I just can't help but think I am just not ready for a New year. Is that okay? You ask why am I not ready. Well when I think about New Year I think about leaving the past in the past and just moving on. Getting over your broken heart. I really can't say I hold grudges. Because I don't. Yes I can be mad at someone, and not talk to them. But evantually I get over it, or go talk to the person and tell them that they hurt me and why. Though I still love them. Back to getting over the new year, I feel like this really hasn't been a year. Yes, a lot has happened. But I can't look back and be like "Yes I really learned a lesson from that heartbreak. loss", I just feel a heavy heart and I am hurt from 2013. I have laughed and cried. Lost friends, family, and some of my mind. ;) Though I have gained sooooo many things, like love, new friends, moved back home. Just I don't know... I look back on 2013 with what most would call regrets like I need more time to fix things. I guess I know I haven't done my best. I am not one that really likes New Years resolutions because I believe that at any moment in time you should make a resolution you don't need a New Year to do so. Though I am one that looks at a New year and is like "Time for a New Start".
So me looking back on New Years, No I don't feel like I did my best this year. But I do believe that when that ball drops and the clock strikes 12. I will breath a sigh of relief, and tell myself to let bigons be bigons. Know that I can't live up to what others want me to be. I will not let society, family, different religious figures tell me what I can or can't be, do, act. etc. I AM ME! I am not my sister, mother, or best friend. I am me, I am sorry if you don't like me. Because let me tell you I am very interesting, I giggle WAY to much, am loud, want to be snuggled, I over think things, am lazy, and messy.
So Let everyone have a very happy new year. May you also accept your year, as I have learned to do while typing this post. One more hour everyone. Love you.
- The Crazy Ginger :P
