How a Man I Never Met, Touched My Life.

I found out about Robin Williams death about two weeks ago. I have had time to sit and ponder, why his death has really taken a toil on me, heck even my family.


It shocks me that a man that brought so many laughs to this world, really just needed one for himself. I feel like a piece of my childhood left with him. I can honestly say Robin didn't give me to many laughs, but, the man showed me the kind of human being I want to be, or was a great example of a good person.


The movies that Robin stared in that stick out in my mind are "Patch Adams" (Patch Adams), "Mrs .Doughfire" (Daniel Hillard), "Awakening" (Dr. Melcome Sayer), and "The Dead Poets Society". In each of these movies Robin left a mark on me.


Patch Adams made me want to go into the medical field. Yes, for a long time i though I wanted to go into it just to help people. Isn't that what everyone goes in for? I just know that you can't save everyone, but what you can do is try to make them comfortable, and put a smile on there face as much as possible while they still have time on this great Earth. I think that is what Patch Adams is all about. He knew that the patients he had, he couldn't save every on of them, but he made them have the best gift of all, being able to smile.


Daniel Hillard taught me what a dad should be like. My dad wasn't very present in my life, but though Robin Williams I learned what a dad should be like. He should try no matter the problems or "road blocks" a good dad wants to be with his kids.


Awakening is just such a touching movie about people that have literally been "asleep" for years like 40 plus years, and finally wake up for a couple of months just to experience life, love, and happiness. Again like in Patch Adams, he didn't set out to cure them as much as to let then be happy and comfortable.  

Last, Robin William plays a professor in the dead poets society.  The movie is quite touching, but, Robin has a line in the movie which states ""The powerful play goes on.... and you may contribute a verse"  wow.  That is just such a deep thought.  when it says a powerful play talking about life.  Form the beginning till the end of the world look at it as just one big play.  and you are just  one verse in that play.  I look at this as, what do you want your verse to say?  Just something simple or something memorable?  

I know that Robin Williams didn't write these lines, some he is just a character portraying a real life person, but still he touched my heart by each of these characters.  

Time For a New Start

So I am sitting here, and watching, listening and reading everyone being so excited for New Years.   Though, I just can't help but think I am just not ready for a New year.  Is that okay? You ask why am I not ready.  Well when I think about New Year I think about leaving the past in the past and just moving on.  Getting over your broken heart.  I really can't say I hold grudges. Because I don't.  Yes I can be mad at someone, and not talk to them. But evantually I get over it, or go talk to the person and tell them that they hurt me and why.  Though I still love them.    Back to getting over the new year, I feel like this really hasn't been a year.  Yes, a lot has happened.  But I can't look back and be like "Yes I really learned a lesson from that heartbreak. loss",  I just feel a heavy heart and I am hurt from 2013.  I have laughed and cried.  Lost friends, family, and some of my mind. ;) Though I have gained sooooo many things,  like love, new friends, moved back home.  Just I don't know... I look back on 2013 with what most would call regrets like I need more time to fix things.  I guess I know I haven't done my best.  I am not one that really likes New Years resolutions because I believe that at any moment in time you should make a resolution you don't need a New Year to do so.  Though I am one that looks at a New year and is like "Time for a New Start".

 So me looking back on New Years, No I don't feel like I did my best this year.  But I do believe that when that ball drops and the clock strikes 12. I will breath a sigh of relief, and tell myself to let bigons be bigons.  Know that I can't live up to what others want me to be.   I will not let society, family, different religious figures tell me what I can or can't be, do, act. etc. I AM ME! I am not my sister, mother, or best friend.  I am me, I am sorry if you don't like me.  Because let me tell you I am very interesting, I giggle WAY to much, am loud, want to be snuggled, I over think things, am lazy, and messy.

So Let everyone have a very happy new year. May you also accept your year, as I have learned to do while typing this post.  One more hour everyone. Love you.

- The Crazy Ginger :P